Post by Deleted on Oct 20, 2014 12:33:57 GMT -5
I'm sure the majority had noticed that I had left the site and wondered why I left in the first place as well.
I'll put it into simple terms; I got sick and tired of feeling like shit [as well as feeling jittery all the freaking time] as well as my ex-job as coadmin since the past few months have been pretty much hell for me. I got shit for not doing enough to keep the site going or not doing my job [Oh hey, I'm sorry that I couldn't prevent so and so from leaving because of some said person; if you wanted to go through two months or more worth of chat-box messages to look for evidence in order to prove or disprove that hearsay from either side, feel free to do so!!] and shit for trying to do my job in the first place but someone's ain't happy because it didn't go their way and their actions happened to break a rule or a few or that they ain't happy because I was avoiding them to keep myself from blowing up in public while I tried to do my job.
Either way, I was trying to do the best I can to keep the site running and not surprisingly, combined with real life, the pressure and stress finally got to me.
The only reason I came back now is that as much as I'm sure the majority of you hate me either because of my ex-position on the site or for something else I couldn't control and should not have been pinned to me [Because hey, that ain't fair.], I still love you guys. That and I'm attempting to prevent a string of stupid from happening or at least try to dampen the consequences from that one mistake.
Whether or not I return as official Raid Mod/CoAdmin, eeeeh, I should let the staff decide on that one. Considering all the shit that happened, I don't know if I actually want it or am ready to be back in that position as of this moment or if they want me back in that position at all.
I just want to write and roleplay and have fun which I had originally came to do when I first joined in the first place and somewhere along the line, that got lost and I just want to find it again. I am sorry that I left but please forgive me?
Here's a kitty huggle gif because I have no winghug gif.
I'll put it into simple terms; I got sick and tired of feeling like shit [as well as feeling jittery all the freaking time] as well as my ex-job as coadmin since the past few months have been pretty much hell for me. I got shit for not doing enough to keep the site going or not doing my job [Oh hey, I'm sorry that I couldn't prevent so and so from leaving because of some said person; if you wanted to go through two months or more worth of chat-box messages to look for evidence in order to prove or disprove that hearsay from either side, feel free to do so!!] and shit for trying to do my job in the first place but someone's ain't happy because it didn't go their way and their actions happened to break a rule or a few or that they ain't happy because I was avoiding them to keep myself from blowing up in public while I tried to do my job.
Either way, I was trying to do the best I can to keep the site running and not surprisingly, combined with real life, the pressure and stress finally got to me.
The only reason I came back now is that as much as I'm sure the majority of you hate me either because of my ex-position on the site or for something else I couldn't control and should not have been pinned to me [Because hey, that ain't fair.], I still love you guys. That and I'm attempting to prevent a string of stupid from happening or at least try to dampen the consequences from that one mistake.
Whether or not I return as official Raid Mod/CoAdmin, eeeeh, I should let the staff decide on that one. Considering all the shit that happened, I don't know if I actually want it or am ready to be back in that position as of this moment or if they want me back in that position at all.
I just want to write and roleplay and have fun which I had originally came to do when I first joined in the first place and somewhere along the line, that got lost and I just want to find it again. I am sorry that I left but please forgive me?
Here's a kitty huggle gif because I have no winghug gif.